How long shall we act like crazy?

Not that I don’t know where misery is
But I don’t feel like watching right now,
Not that I make a fool of myself,
I just feel like resting from being clever.

Not that I don’t see all the sadness
But that is for somebody else,
And maybe all of that is waiting for me
But for now I watch that from far away.

Everybody knows everything, but it is hidden
Everybody helps everyone
Who asks you how you are.

Not that I don’t know how it’s going
And how they steal, well everybody sees it
Not that I don’t know for those villains,
But eyes don’t want to open.

Not that I want to surrender
But I just mind my own business
And not that I can digest that
But why to make my life be worse?